Saturday, December 31, 2005

There will never be a New Year Eve like this one...I just saw that on TV. I was not going to write about tonight because the feelings are still to new, but I feel I need to. Today is December 31, the last day in 2005. I turned 42 today and I held my fathers hand and told him I loved him and kissed him good bye, for the last time. Not just for the year but forever. My father passed away tonight. I miss him already. Tomorrow will bring a new year and a new begining, but I will still miss him.

17 comments:

addict said...

I came by to wish you a Happy New Year...
but I think I just want to hug you instead...
I am so very sorry sweetie

Mike said...

hugs....I'm 'typeless'....sorry for your loss.

badgerbob said...

Wow Jill! That's not a great way to start the year off, but I hope it gets much better for you. Sorry for your loss, and happy birthday, if that's possible.

Karen said...

{{{Jillian}}} I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm sure he was a wonderful man and he will live in your heart forever. Death can't break those bonds. Happy birthday, if that's possible. *BIG HUGS* You're an amazing woman, and have a great attitude, most would be so angry but you're seeing the bright side of things, with the new beginnings.

Rat In A Cage said...

Hang in there, Jillian. I think it's at least better you were able to be with him at the end. I am sure he found it comforting.

MamaKBear said...

Oh sweetie! I'm so sorry!! That is just the most awful thing to have happen, and on your birthday!!

I had tears come to my eyes as I read your post. I hope you did have some good things happen on your birthday and you were able to enjoy them.

Sending you a big hug!
(((((((Jill))))))))

Seamus said...

Hugs for you sweetie. It is a gift I think to be there, I was with mom at the end as well and it was very powerful. {{{{{J}}}}}

Hale McKay said...

With your loss, wishing you a Happy New Year seems almost empty.
I'm sure,however, he would join me in wishing you only he best for the coming year.

Bud said...

Ah, Jill! I'm so sorry. There's nothing new or original I can say. My father died in my arms a while back. No two experiences are the same but I just want you to know I share yor pain. Happy Birthday sounds hollow. Happy New Year sounds worse. I just want you to heal and grow from this. I'll be thinking of you. I hope you're safe in the floods!

blue1aqua1 said...

happy belated bday and many hugs go out to you!

~Deb said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. No words could probably lift your spirits-- but know that your father is wishing you a happy birthday as well as a great new year.

I wish happiness, love and health for your coming year. Hang in there---{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}

Jillian said...

Thank you all for your support and kind words. You do not know how much they mean to me.

Dick said...

Jesus Jill, I'm so sorry.

TheSugarV said...

Im so sorry J. My sympathies.

Assorted Babble by Suzie said...

Dearest Jill,
I am so sorry...wish there was something I could do or say to help. You are in my prayers. God be with you.

If you need someone to talk to or email, please let me know...will send you my number if so. Take care.....Thinking of you, your boys and family.

((((((((Hugs)))))))))

se7en said...

OMG!! I'm so sorry to hear! Big hugs and well wishes, I hope everyone else is ok.

I hope 2006 is a rocking good year for you hon, take care of you and yours, give us a shout if you need anything!!!

More hugs!!!!!!!!!

Assorted Babble by Suzie said...

Thursday:
Jill you are in my prayers...thinking about you!