Tuesday, December 18, 2007

A new chapter..

Today I feel as if and old and I mean really old chapter in my life is finally closed. I took my first step into my fathers house since his death, almost 2 years ago. It has been a long and unnecessary legal battle, that at this point I don't even care to think about. I just know in my heart that its over, and I did my best to do as my father wished. I actually smiled as I pulled into my driveway tonight and was glad to be home and I felt at peace. So after Christmas I will help my sister move into the home built by my Grandparents and handed down by my father to her, and I hope that each night as she pulls into the driveway she smiles and is happy to be home................

Saturday, October 20, 2007

And life goes on...

Where did I leave off last....Hmmmmmm...depressed! Well imagine that I'm still depressed from lack of sleep...So I'm off to have a nap. Maybe something brilliant will come to me in my dreams!

Friday, September 21, 2007

I'm Haning in there!

Sometimes I wonder how....I do have to admit things have been really crappy since the death of my father and with the passing of my Grandfather 10 months later and to top it off in April 07 I lost yet one more important person in my life. Jack, he was like a father to me and also my neighbor for 9 years. It just seems like death have been following me around and I wonder who death will come for next. It has been such a roller coaster of emotion for me. Just when I feel my grieving process has reached an end I have to start all over again.

I'm broken and am trying so hard to come to understand all that has happen. I feel that this is a first step...reaching out and posting again....so bear with me if I ramble....screw it! Its my blog I can ramble if I want.

So I guess I'm back...kinda...

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Please help me!!

I know this is shameless, but if you could please vote for Miss Penny. I would be so happy! I know I'm probably the only one in the world that thinks my dog is the perfect dog. But with that smushy face how can you resist.

Vote here!!!

Have a super evening!

Friday, April 20, 2007


I have been gone way to long! I miss blogging...Has it changed? I have! Oh wait... I'm still a bitch! I'm doing ok. Just got back from a trip to DC & New York with 19 kids and 10 parents. Its was fun and fast paced. I myself would like alittle more time to enjoy things. The kids had fun except for the days the got the flu. That really sucked! Imagine being stuck on a bus with a bunch of kids & some parents throwing up for 5 hours! It was pure hell! Now I need a vacation to unwind from my vacation!

Hope you all have been doing well!

Have a super weekend!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Empty Can

Today I went to where you spent most of your days
It was where I remember you the most
Where I spent many hours with you
Always working on something
You could always fix anything
My eyes scanned your tools
Untouched for over a year
As if you never left
My eyes came to rest on an empty Pepsi can
It was just an empty can full of cigarette butts to most
but to me it was so much more
It brought tears to my eyes as I picked it up
I shook it alittle and then
I could see you working in your shop
Making what was wrong right again
I touched your tools that still lay on your work bench
and I could feel you there with me
Today I wished you where still here.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Happy 2007 !

It is my hope that this year will be better than the last. I turned 43, made it through the holidays with out my Dad and Grandpa. For me that was the biggest part. I feel that I can start fresh in the new year as old wounds heal and new memories are created.

Life goes on!