Tuesday, May 24, 2005

ANXIETY/PANIC ATTACKS

For those of you who have never experienced an anxiety attack......You are very lucky....Because they really fucking suck!!!!!!!!! I have had them for as long as I can remember, but they have gotten less severe over time and I usually can tell when one is coming and am able to control it on my own. Today was different it hit me out of the blue, just an overwhelming feeling like I could not handle any more. I woke up feeling kinda sad...It should have clued me in that something was going to happen, but I just thought it was a restless night sleep in yet another hotel, so I got ready for my meeting and headed downstairs. It hit me in the meeting, I was unable to concentrate on what was being said and my thoughts would not settle on any one thing. I kept thinking what the fuck am I doing here? I just wanted to go to my room and hibernate. So I waited until lunch break thinking that some quite time in my room might help. We got 1 1/2 hours for lunch, but after an hour I knew it was not going to stop by its self. So he I sit waiting for my anxiety meds to work. As I reflect back over the last couple of days events I now can see that this was coming on. I work fulltime and own a business on the side with my sister. Which leaves me little time for me and my kids. Let alone any personal time to pursue my own life. I So here I sit(with a bottle of Chardonnay), knowing I should be in my meeting, but unable to leave my room. Is all the work and money and personnel possessions worth all this?????? I'd give it all up to have a simple normal life. I suppose I work so much so I do not have to deal with my feelings. Who knows??? Maybe you do,because right now I don't!!!!! Right now IM going to read my favorite blog's, surf the net and then have a nice nap!!!!!!! God knows the meds and wine will speed that up.

4 comments:

Kiki said...

I have an occasional attack over the past few years - I really hate them. i learned in therapy how to prevent them, and how to deal with them.

I hope the rest of your trip goes smoothly.

Ciao

Kiki

FDF said...

Other, less serious side effects may be more likely to occur. Continue to take Skelaxin and talk to your doctor if you experience drowsiness, dizziness, or clumsiness

FDF said...

What happens if I miss a dose of Vicodin ? Take the missed dose as soon as you remember. However, if it is almost time for the next dose, skip the dose you missed and take only the next regularly scheduled dose. Do not take a double dose of this medication. A double dose could be dangerous.

FDF said...

Do not take Phentermine if you are depressed or have suicidal thoughts; or have mania, bipolar disorder, or another psychiatric condition