Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Sick!!

I spent my 3 day weekend sick with a cold!! It seems like it will never end. I did manage to get the house clean and do laundry. So now I am at work and I feel like I was robbed of my weekend. It sucks!

The high light of my weekend was picking out my dad's headstone. Ok I admit I am depressed. I really do not post about my private feeling on here, but the depression has grabbed hold of me and I can't shake it. I am no stranger to it, and usually I can handle it. It just feels so overwhelming right now.
I find it easier to hide from the world, put on the happy smiley face, so you can't see my pain. I'm tired and I just want to sit and cry!

8 comments:

RocksAndChairs said...

i know EXACTLY how you feel. i dont know if it helps to know you're not alone...but you're not!!

MamaKBear said...

A good cry may be just what you need...so when you get home, just let it all out!

Hugs, sweetie, it'll all be alright!

art said...

(((HUG)))

Drywall Mom said...

There is nothing wrong with that as long as you know that it wont get you down to the point of antisocialism. But every once in a while I think it is needed just for sanity reasons. If I had to be peachy king all the time I would kill myself or someone around me would. I hate poeple that are always over happy and never once show any signs of sadness.

Seamus said...

Jillian - sometimes you just have to let it out and sit with it for a little while. Given the circumstance it's probably healthy to allow yourself to grieve for a while. You'll be back, smiling at us again.
Sorry your weekend was a sick workday - somehow just doesn't seem right! {{{{{J}}}}}

BTExpress said...

I remember picking out my wife's headstone a couple of months ago, so I know how difficult it can be. Trust me when I say it gets better.

truckdriver_sefl said...

Jill my daddy died 12 years ago. I was the one that had to be strong and make all the arangemnts. I know just how you feel. Sometimes its good just to let it all out. There will be good days and bad just don't hold it all in. It does really get better with time *hugs*

Jillian said...

Thank for all your advice and encourging words. They mean the world to me!!